This is coming from the heart today because its been a long month of allergies, bronchitis, fainting episode, dizzy mornings, and lots of doctor visits and medicine.
I braved through it. I have been battling dust and Dubai allergies for years, but over the past year they have been severe and my body has been screaming for attention. After almost fainting in front of my family, and watching my kids panic and cry looking at their mama, I realised that it’s finally time to give myself a break.
I went to the doctor. I got my blood work done. I went to the specialist. Only to find out that there’s nothing majorly wrong and I just have to be on anti allergies for the rest of my life (in Dubai at least). You would think this was comforting. But honestly when you’re sick of being sick … you want a reason. A major reason. That way you can tackle it head on and get over it and just fix it. You can’t fix normal. You can’t fix how you react to certain things. And you’re left with questions.
Why won’t it just go away? Why is this happening? When will it stop? How will I manage? Can I just run away? There are no answers.
You gotta do what you gotta do. Life won’t stop. So you wake up groggy and stuffed. You take your meds and deal with the drowsiness. You cook, you feed, you do the school run, you help with homework, you make sure you go for play dates, you feed again, you do the bedtime routine, and you crash.
You love and care for your kids even though you want to be a kid because you want to be taken care of. The kind of care only a mother can give. So you want to run away. But you love your kids. So you stay.
Sick mamas everywhere. Specially those away from family and with no help. You’re doing great. Don’t feel bad that you didn’t smile at your children today. Don’t feel bad that you didn’t have the energy to play. Don’t feel bad for the take out or left over food you fed them. Don’t feel bad for letting them watch tv or iPad the whole day.
You were with them.
You didn’t run away.
Don’t. Feel. Bad.
Take care
xoxo
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